Another lonely day

This is one of those days when I have to think , why did I come here , why did I believe in someone that I actually left my country , my home , my friends , my family ?  Because I trusted , believed , loved and was so excited about my future with him and in my new country,  As time goes by , the bubbles are bursting , the tears flow and my heart feels like a diamond being shattered into a million pieces.  Another day of not laughing , having fun , enjoying this country.  Instead I sit here and feel numb , so very numb.